I want a fucking dishwasher
29 Apr 2010 2 Comments
in frustrations, rants Tags: dishwasher, frustrations, home, kitchen, kitchen disaster
And no, I don’t mean a dishwasher that fucks. That would be painful I think.
First of all, I want one because washing dishes by hand is a waste of time, energy, water, soap, and everything else you can imagine. Not to mention it makes the skin on your hands wrinkly.
We must save the environment!! Be greener and buy me a dishwasher now!!
Second of all … you can avoid the horrible stench of dirty water with many-days-old-food that contaminates the pots before you actually get around to washing them. When you finally rinse that water to put fresh in, ewww…..
Third, you can avoid accidents like I had now.
Shit…
I was washing the LAST fucking pot, finally my dish-washing hour would be happily over…. I reach up to stick it in with the others, in the cupboard where things are put to dry … (There is a gap underneath where the water drops as they dry). There wasn’t much space… I had the sponge in one hand, so I couldn’t control things well…. One small pot falls, I try to catch it, then the fucking big one falls, rolls to the side, on the pan with the nice garlic bread I had ready to eat, and all those fall to the ground. I just watched them fall as I yelled…. Does my subconscious think that the louder I yell the more probable it’ll be for the pots to stop falling?
Shit.
The big pot, the nicest one we had….. The whole side of it is indented 
And we had gotten a great deal on it…. Now … ? The lid will not fit any more, no more tossing pasta salads or mixing up anything else in there. No more cooking with the lid on.
M. will NOT be happy…. And I can understand…. It won’t be unjustified. Ruined, from my stupidity. Couldn’t I just close the water from running, put the sponge down, and THEN try to put it up?! Shit… Such a good pot lost.
Also my garlic bread It fell on the floor, so I doubt I can eat it now…. A whole baguette, lost? I don’t like to throw out food. :/ The floor isn’t clean. If I ate it, it would be like licking the floor! Gross. I don’t know even if it rolled at all… If not, then I could cut a thin part from the bottom to simply seat the rest.
On one hand, I want to cry because of this pot ruining.
On the other hand, I don’t want to be materialistic. Things I want to teach my children, I should learn myself first. So, I am trying to tell myself that it’s not such a big deal. Which creates a knot in my stomach because of containing the feelings.
*grumpy*
So much for breaking the procrastination and doing all the dishes.
Various Variosities
29 Apr 2010 1 Comment
in computers, informative, life, thoughts Tags: add, concentration, google, google transliteration, war, work
Haha 
A new word! Created by yours truly, Drusillah sama!
Variosities (n) : Another way to define “variety”. Things that are different with each other.
Have you heard of Google Transliteration? If you haven’t, and if you write in a different alphabet sometimes, then you must know about it, and you will know… right, now!
You write normal text in English with roman alphabet… After you have chosen the language you want it to be converted in… You write a word, and press Space, and poof!! The whole alphabet has changed!!!! They have Hindi, Greek, Arabic, Russian, Serbian, Hebrew, to name a few!
I, for one, will definitely use it! 
(Take note: It’s not a translator. You have to write the word in the said language in roman alphabets.
Ok, let’s try it. I’ll choose Greek….
“Geia sas, ti xambariazete re paidia?”
And poof!
“Γεια σας, τι χαμπαριάζετε ρε παιδιά?”
Hehe 
It’s snowing/raining again today. Bad weather doesn’t help the mood, does it? Nor does when you feel lonely, so that’s an added bonus.
There was no meeting last Tuesday btw. I made a mistake with the days. I had set to get emails weekly, so I received the email too late and didn’t realize it till later.
The good thing is, the next day I went to another kind of meeting. I already knew a few people there, and one girl has the quality/gift to make you feel comfortable, which is great
I stumbled on this image yesterday… I think I was looking at it for 5 mins. How can one describe the feelings in it? Sure, there are words available to do this, but I would think they aren’t enough, to describe this woman’s feelings…. And what feelings this image creates in the viewer.
Damn, this is so hard to concentrate at work and study what I must. Do I have ADD or something? I never was able to concentrate on studying for long. If something took normal students 30 mins, for me it was 3 hours, because of all the f^%$$## breaks I would take, and mind you, they weren’t short ones. Or is something wrong with my internal batteries? I take a break at work, but still, I don’t feel rested.
I want to have a nice, funny, light, memorable blog. That takes effort.
Two days ago, after a LOT of nagging from my father, I went out to run/walk. I did it because I didn’t want to end up as he was so sure that I would. (Something I hate, when people talk as if they know the future). It was a nice feeling to be out I only went for 25 mins or so, and most of the time I was walking briskly because with a bit of running my heartbeat rate would skyrocket. Trying to keep the rate under 140 is great, M. told me. Or else you burn sugar, and not fat. And Universe knows, I have LOTS of fat in my body. I won’t tell you the percentage. But it doesn’t show on the outside that much, thank goodness. I am wondering what is the percentage of the obese.
Woo…. Word count: 529!
Do you by any chance like Mexican?
If so, this article is good
23 Mexican-Restaurant Words You Need to Know
One of these days I am going to put up pictures from my Benelux trip But I have been so lazy lately Nobody must ever see the kitchen and its current state.
Have a pleasant 1st of May!
Cheers!
Justin Bieber, Baby
28 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
in music Tags: baby, bieber, daniel radcliffe, justin, justin bieber, ludacris, music, pet shop boys, radcliffe
Hello! 
I was hearing about all this hype about Justin Bieber. I would think, meh.
Today I watched a nigahiga video telling people to stop worshiping him, and stop hating him, as he’s only a boy.
So, I was curious
I watched this music video/heard this song of his:
I am half-embarassed to say that now the song is stuck in my head. Me, a 25 year-old! Listening to a 16 year-old’s song!
Well, why not. It’s not like it’s a relationship, he is just singing the song.
I really like the chorus, how he sings, “Baby, baby, baby, nooooooo” That “no” and how he sings it is what keeps me stuck on the song. ;P
I was always a sucker for guys singing a bit higher notes Like Pet Shop Boys, in a few select songs.
I don’t understand though how he could have shot up in fame so damn quickly. This is what I found on wiki:
Bieber’s first album My World, was released on November 17, 2009. Bieber performed Stevie Wonder‘s “Someday at Christmas” for U.S. President Barack Obama and first lady Michelle Obama at the White House for Christmas in Washington, which was broadcast on December 20, 2009 on USA television broadcaster TNT.[22] Bieber was also one of the performers at Dick Clark’s New Year’s Rockin’ Eve with Ryan Seacrest on December 31.[23] Bieber was a presenter at the52nd Grammy Awards on January 31, 2010. He was invited to be a vocalist for the remake of We Are The World for its 25th anniversary to benefit Haiti after the earthquake. Bieber sings the opening line, which was sung by Lionel Richie in the original version.[24]
I mean, come on!!!! In only one month??! I think those positions should be given to others that will appreciate it more.
Well yes he has a great voice for his age But it doesn’t justify the violence. (Concerts were cancelled due to girls being injured :O And others hyperventilating…)
But I can understand the fan-girls and their craze to an extent …. I was also infatuated with Daniel Radcliffe … I would browse the internet for hours, desperately trying to find his email … Why? Just to feel closer, to hear his voice, to speak with him, anything. He used to look like this:
And this is how he looked in a play, Equus, in the recent years: (I am sure you have heard about it)
His chest needs some working on But the rest… very good *eyes popping out*
M. will kill me if he reads this.
Btw, I think this post has taken me 45 mins already. :/ My computer is just so f^%$#@# slow lately.
Hmmmm, speaking of Pet Shop Boys, I think I will make a separate post about them I listened to them too damn much when I was 16 to not do so
Cheers!
Social-ly anxious
26 Apr 2010 5 Comments
in worries Tags: anxious, meeting, nervous, people, social anxiety
Hello!
Tomorrow there is a meeting here in the city, and I am thinking of going. To meet new people.
But I feel scared. What if nobody wants to talk to me? What if everybody already knows each other there, and they ignore me? :/
Usually I don’t know what to say to open a conversation… When the conversation gets going, ok, I can ask where the person is from etc, but what after that? :/
I miss my friends The feeling of being totally comfortable with the other person, having a good and pleasurable time, being happy.
And now I have to start all over. Plus, I don’t even know if I will find good friends. What if everyone is not my type, and we don’t get along? This is making me too nervous…. Ach jaj.
But I don’t want to not go. I don’t want to be a coward and regret it. I already put the idea into my head now, so I will go.
But I feel so nervous!!!!! :/ Jaaaj
Help?
Btw, what do you think of the new theme? It’s new theme of WordPress for 2010. But now I lost the code that says how many people have visited from which countries, and I don’t remember what it’s called!
Worries, worries. The more I try to calm myself down and tell myself it’s not so terrible, the more nervous I become.
Wish me luck? *meep*
Frustrations, frustrations
19 Apr 2010 10 Comments
in rants Tags: exercise, fat, fitness, frustration, hills, rant, ranting
Argh!!!!
I am pissed off!!
Nothing too important, mind you, but still…. I want to rant.
It took me 30 mins to get home from work with the bicycle … All lovely? Well if I wasn’t almost unconscious when I reached the door!!!
Huffing and puffing and my face all red and swollen and hot, and sweat, and my heartbeat going at 200 beats. (ok, a bit of exageration there about the heartbeat rate )
Ugh!!!
If anyone tells me that exercise gives you a good after-feeling, I’ll shoot them in the face (and that’s not violent enough).
And why the hell did I lose an hour of my precious needed sleep last night to wash my hair, when it would get all sweaty today?!?!
Argh!!!
Yeah yeah, ok, I am overweight (I will not tell you how much percent of fat I have, I measured it. I wouldn’t want you to faint as well.), and I have asthma, so what do I expect?
Well, it’s not like I had a choice! I chose to live in a place that is full of HILLS! GO FIGURE!!!! Plus did I mention I absolutely hate going uphill??
I bet you anything I didn’t even burn any fat today… With that heartbeat, I must have burned all my sugar deposits. :/
My future/permanent place of living will be FLAT !!! FLAT ! With the exception of mountains in the far background, to give an added bonus to the scenery and beauty. But that’s it! No cycling or walking over hills!
Plus, it took me 30 mins to get home because I was going like a turtle….
Google Maps tells me it’s a total distance of 4.3 km. Which means for 1 km I do around 7 mins. Wow, that’s SLOW. :/
I hope you are more fit than me, because this is not fun.
Plus, I want more sweat-resistant hair!! I like my hair a lot, but I don’t like that as soon as I sweat it needs washing.
Wikis
19 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
in computers, informative Tags: uncyclopedia, wikihow, wikipedia, wikis, wikitravel, wikiversity
I didn’t know there are so many different wikis out there…
What is a wiki you ask?
A wiki is a website that allows the easy creation and editing of any number of interlinked web pages via a web browser using a simplified markup language or a WYSIWYG text editor.
Or more simplified:
A wiki is software that allows users to freely create and edit Web page content using any Web browser.
Ok, we all know the famous Wikipedia, the online and free encyclopedia
But what else is out there?
Wikitravel – travel guides
Wikiversity – learning resources, projects, and research
wikiHow – tutorials galore
Uncyclopedia – a comedic version of Wikipedia
It’s snowing!! In April!!
17 Apr 2010 3 Comments
in idle Tags: amazing, bored, he's just not that into you, inna, movie, snow, weather
And no, I am not happy about it.
Damn it!
Snow!! In April!
I am quite ready to accept Spring, thank you Universe! You can bring Spring now! Universe? Universe?? Can you hear me?!
Apparently not.
*grumpy*
Ach jaj. (for those who don’t know, this is pronounced: ax yiai <– does this make sense? probably not )
Bleh. Plus it is even settling on the ground!!
Be gone by tomorrow, you evil snowflakes!
Well when it’s time for snow, I like it quite much. But frankly I’m kind of tired of it at the moment. I want sunny clear sky, and green grass, and a light breeze in the air, stroking your hair softly!
Ho hum.
There were some things I wanted to write here, but alas, I have forgotten.
Well, I must say, when you start to work, 22:00 doesn’t seem so early anymore. I used to feel like 22:00 is still evening, but now I feel it’s bed-time.
Anyone volunteering to organize my thousands of bookmarks? Just kidding. *angel face*
Well, going to watch “He’s Just Not That Into You”! I heard it’s quite good.
Btw why is this so popular?
The first time I heard it, I thought it was ok, but now for some reason the music makes me sad. Well, I’ve heard that there are specific note sequences that make a song sound sad, or happy, etc. Interesting!
And why must all club/dance songs have sexy images ?
It stopped snowing ! Hopefully Spring will emerge from its slumber soon enough
Perfectionism
13 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
in thoughts Tags: attachment to objects, backpack, faulty, perfect, perfectionism
Hello hello
I realized that I can get attached to objects … And when I do, and somebody makes a comment about it that may even imply that it’s not good, I get aggressive. Probably because I am attached to the said object, I feel like those comments are about me.
For example… For the Benelux trip I bought my first backpack ever. With a capacity of 75 L no less, woot!
M. made a comment about it not having an adjustable right strap, and I got defensive. I felt like it meant my backpack is less than others, or crappy.
Ach jaj, I guess I want things to be perfect. :/
M. borrowed it for a small weekend trip, and I told him to take very good care of it. When he returned, he regrettably told me that somehow, one part ripped, even though he was taking care of it, much more than how he takes care of his backpacks. Plus, he didn’t hear it rip. Well, I must admit that I cried a little bit. :/ I considered it faulty, not perfect in my eyes anymore.
And that thought that I had, makes me sad. I don’t want to consider for example my children this way. But I think I don’t act this way with people… A shivering thought came to me later that evening: What if the Universe wants to teach me a lesson, and I give birth to a child with problems? *shiver* *knocks on wood* Maybe my way of thinking is twisted, but I really don’t want such a lesson. I will try to learn not to expect perfection, but I don’t know how. Maybe to repeat to myself that even something less than perfect is good as well. And that if I expect perfectionism I’ll lead an unhappy life. And I really don’t want to have an unhappy life.
But I am not sure how to change it… Any ideas?
Bored at work …
12 Apr 2010 2 Comments
in life, work Tags: boredom, life, work, working life
Hello … !
I am at work! Oh yes, I have started to work!
Well, it’s internship, but still. The first job that I actually have to be present for at least 8 hours… *faints*
Thank the Universe for Facebook games. (I really hope nobody from work finds this )
Another 1,5 hours and I can finally go home!
The working environment I must say is very nice. I like my desk a lot. Comfortable chair, high desktop screen, unlimited supplies of pens, notebooks, folders… Plus they have an eating area for the staff, and the windows overlook to a beautiful view.
But my problem is that I cannot concentrate on something mundane for long. (Well, I guess you would say: who can?) I read something for 10 mins and feel like it’s been an hour.
Plus I so much more prefer to print documents, instead of reading them off the monitor. (ugh)
Or is this normal? Is the majority of the working class clowning around 3/4 of the day, and actually work 1/4 of those total 8 hours? I’ve seen all around the internet about images and sites being “NSFW” = Not Suitable For Work, which means that people do surf the web during work hours… In my mind the ideal “worker” whether it’s a CEO, a manager, a programmer, or a builder, should work at least 5,5 – 6 hours, with 7 being the best. But is this just an illusion and do most people not work actually so much? Please tell me yes, please say yes.
This past Saturday I watched the rest of the episodes of Loooost! And oh, it’s so gripping. Only 5 more episodes left till the series finale… What a sad day that’ll be. (I’m 1/4 serious) I implore you to watch if you have not started the series yet!
I felt very bad when the last book of Harry Potter came out, but I don’t think I’m so attached to Lost as I am to the Harry Potter books. At least I think.
Btw, I have a disclaimer to make. The image in my previous post about weight loss isn’t me. Someone suggested I put the disclaimer, so here I am.
My stomach is acting up, so I’ll grab the chance to get off this chair and see some of the world outside these four walls.
Till we meet again !
Back?!
10 Apr 2010 5 Comments
in life, thoughts Tags: back, benelux, ketchup charlie, losing weight, mustard marvin, overweight
Hellooo!
It’s been so long since I last wrote… A month? Less, more? Well I had an excuse before, but now not. Before I was travelling! Yes, the trip I was telling you about, around Benelux!
I had a great time, but it was also quite tiring. I think that 7 days were quite enough for the time being. When I tranfer the pictures to the pc, I will post some for you to see! (Of scenery and buildings, I mean, not of me. )
These past days I kept thinking of my blog here, and what I should write. I had a few ideas, but I forgot some now.
Well I have good news to my former self!! Finns DO eat soup!! And I bought two bowls in one afternoon.
Yesterday I was in the center, so I thought I’d look for jeans. I am left with one pair at the moment because one already died from all the walking during the trip … ! So, I enter one store in the shopping mall… I thought I would faint from the prices. So, I go into another store… Great prices! Yay! I take 4 into the dressing room… First one… shit, it won’t go past my hips. I am sweating in the heat that the light is giving off. Second pair… shit, same fate. I am starting to feel that my body is bigger than these sizes of the store… Third one, I feel like a whale. By the fourth one, I was already in a bad mood. I should lose some weight.
Ok, I am not American-style obese,
but I’m European-standards overweight. I’d like something like this:
But I don’t want to give up my Duo Hazelnut Paste (I don’t think it has a name, but it tastes like Nutella ) in the morning.
In the past I was avoiding it because I had tried something similar from Lidl iirc and I hadn’t liked it. But my friend M. was eating it during our Benelux trip (the good hostels provided it for breakfast!) and so I tried it as well, and for now I’m hooked. I hope I will get tired of it so I can eat a healthier breakfast.
It’s so strange when there is snow in March and April, isn’t it. It still hasn’t all melted. Spring will be great….
One thing I really like about this transition from Winter into Spring, is when the snow melts and tiny little rivers form, with ice-cold water running…. And the snow still on the banks.
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I tell you, I have no words for some inventions that people think up. For example these two “heads” that you put on mustard and ketchup bottles…
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